So I've been sick lately and that of course means lots of TV watching.
Today I caught a few episodes of MTV's True Life. One was, I'm At A Crossroads in My Relationship, and the other was I'm Relocating for Love.
Now, I will admit that I've had some less than wonderful relationships in the past, and I get that there's the magic of TV editing, but why is it that every couple on True Life seems to hate each other or argue constantly? It's not even petty little arguments, it's mostly about one person feeling unhappy or both of them yelling at each other. If this is something that comes up regularly, WHY ARE THESE COUPLES TOGETHER?
I don't claim to have a perfect relationship by any means, but Chad and I have done damn well so far. We celebrate our 6 month anniversary in a few days, and although we live hundreds of miles away from each other, we've managed to spend lots of time together and we've become very comfortable and close. We have a very inconvenient relationship, in the sense that we go for weeks without seeing each other, and have to depend on finding cheap flights, talking through texts, or phone calls.
Needless to say, this is the happiest I've ever been, and in a few months Chad will be moving up here. Even then, I don't expect to have a perfect relationship, I'm sure we'll have our fair share of ups or downs, but at this point we haven't even had an argument. We're very good at expressing our feelings and resolving frustrations before they get to a boiling point. We're not only in a relationship, but we're best friends as well.
So maybe these people just don't know how to effectively communicate. Maybe they're just settling or afraid to be alone. Either way, if I ever find myself being truly unhappy or uninterested, that's when I'll know to walk away. Relationships can be about comfort, but it can't be healthy to stay in one solely for feeling that way.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Stuck
I'm in the same place I was last time I posted. Still jobless. It's really depressing at this point. Luckily I have been getting some orders through Knit Terrors, but I still need something steady so I can move out.
Chad is seriously looking into moving up here, something we tried to keep quiet for a while but now it's out in the open. We have the support of basically everyone around us, and people are trying to help us make it happen. So now not only am I looking for a job here, but so is Chad. Ideally, he'd be up here within the next few months. We have the opportunity to move in with my sister and her husband, which will help the four of us out greatly. It'll only be temporary, but it will be a lot less stress, and a good adjustment period for us.
Chad came up last Wednesday and left yesterday. I still can't explain it, but I feel like such a better person when he's around. I feel overwhelmingly happy, and I know that others can see it too. He's such an amazing human being. We've grown really close over the past six months (although we've only been in a relationship for five). We've also grown very much individually. We feel closer and more comfortable each time one of us visits, which also makes it a million times harder when one of us has to leave.
I feel like I lucked out with Chad, and that he truly is my soulmate. That's something I used to scoff at, the idea of true romantic love. I feel fortunate that I've been getting to know all the facets of his personality, and I see a side of him that not a lot of people either get a chance to, or want to see. I wish for other people to see it. I feel at home when I'm with him. I can't put it any better than that.
I somehow managed to pull something major in my back this weekend, and I am experiencing pain that I never had to in the past. I was at the point last night where it took me about 5-10 minutes to get out of bed successfully without feeling like the right side of my body was going to fall off. Pain shooting down my leg, I couldn't sleep on my right side (which I usually do). It was hell, and I got maybe three hours of sleep last night. I ended up taking a nap on the couch for most of the morning, and I somehow feel better. So I'm wondering if I just pulled something and my bed/the bed at my sister's just aggravated it. Either way, I feel a tiny bit better now, but not going to start running laps or anything. I did, however, read that exercising/using the elliptical may help so I might be able to try that a bit later. I hate laying in bed.
I have some knitting orders to finish up, then it's time to start knitting for conventions coming up in the next few months. Here's to hoping my hands don't fall off!
Chad is seriously looking into moving up here, something we tried to keep quiet for a while but now it's out in the open. We have the support of basically everyone around us, and people are trying to help us make it happen. So now not only am I looking for a job here, but so is Chad. Ideally, he'd be up here within the next few months. We have the opportunity to move in with my sister and her husband, which will help the four of us out greatly. It'll only be temporary, but it will be a lot less stress, and a good adjustment period for us.
Chad came up last Wednesday and left yesterday. I still can't explain it, but I feel like such a better person when he's around. I feel overwhelmingly happy, and I know that others can see it too. He's such an amazing human being. We've grown really close over the past six months (although we've only been in a relationship for five). We've also grown very much individually. We feel closer and more comfortable each time one of us visits, which also makes it a million times harder when one of us has to leave.
I feel like I lucked out with Chad, and that he truly is my soulmate. That's something I used to scoff at, the idea of true romantic love. I feel fortunate that I've been getting to know all the facets of his personality, and I see a side of him that not a lot of people either get a chance to, or want to see. I wish for other people to see it. I feel at home when I'm with him. I can't put it any better than that.
I somehow managed to pull something major in my back this weekend, and I am experiencing pain that I never had to in the past. I was at the point last night where it took me about 5-10 minutes to get out of bed successfully without feeling like the right side of my body was going to fall off. Pain shooting down my leg, I couldn't sleep on my right side (which I usually do). It was hell, and I got maybe three hours of sleep last night. I ended up taking a nap on the couch for most of the morning, and I somehow feel better. So I'm wondering if I just pulled something and my bed/the bed at my sister's just aggravated it. Either way, I feel a tiny bit better now, but not going to start running laps or anything. I did, however, read that exercising/using the elliptical may help so I might be able to try that a bit later. I hate laying in bed.
I have some knitting orders to finish up, then it's time to start knitting for conventions coming up in the next few months. Here's to hoping my hands don't fall off!
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Slowly But Surely...
Things in my life still aren't happening as fast as I'd like them too, but lately I just have a general feeling that it is all going to change. Baby steps. I guess it's true that something worth having is worth waiting for, but if you know me, you know I'm a rather impatient person. One thing that I've been trying to learn is the importance of being patient. It's rough.
I just spent over a week with Chad. A trip, which was only supposed to be 6 days, ended up lasting 9. Last Sunday, the 3rd, was our five month anniversary. No big deal to some, but we like to acknowledge these things. Each month it gets trickier to figure out who's visiting who. Long distance is hard. And expensive. But Chad came up here and we were excited to FINALLY be able to spend an anniversary together in person. Something that we haven't been able to do so far.
So we decide on dinner and a movie. A simple date (hey, we're easy to please!), but we're such geeks when it comes to doing all this cutesy couple stuff. We end up going to dinner, and then head over to see Limitless at the move theater. Long story short, Chad ended up with a nasty stomach bug. It lasted only about a day or two...and then I got it. It took me about 3 days to fully get over it. It was awful, and Chad decided to change his flight (which was not cheap to do) to stay a few extra days to take care of me and be able to spend a little more time with me.
I must say, seeing each other completely helpless, whiney, beyond sick, and essentially at our worst, really brought us closer together. We had a very interesting time this week and learned more about each other (not just due to sickness) and gained new understanding towards one another. A few nights ago we jokingly decided to play "Truth or Dare" as we lay in bed, which we decided to just turn into a game of "Truth". It was nice to come out and ask things that we probably wouldn't have otherwise.
Every day I look more and more forward to seeing our relationship grow, and how we grow together. It's comforting to feel like you truly have met your other half. It's heartbreaking when one of us goes away. But that is something that may be changing sooner rather than later... ;)
I dropped him off at the airport a few hours ago, and now he's back home, and I'm in mine. He comes back in 11 days and is going to spend Easter with me and my family. No time for moping!
I just spent over a week with Chad. A trip, which was only supposed to be 6 days, ended up lasting 9. Last Sunday, the 3rd, was our five month anniversary. No big deal to some, but we like to acknowledge these things. Each month it gets trickier to figure out who's visiting who. Long distance is hard. And expensive. But Chad came up here and we were excited to FINALLY be able to spend an anniversary together in person. Something that we haven't been able to do so far.
So we decide on dinner and a movie. A simple date (hey, we're easy to please!), but we're such geeks when it comes to doing all this cutesy couple stuff. We end up going to dinner, and then head over to see Limitless at the move theater. Long story short, Chad ended up with a nasty stomach bug. It lasted only about a day or two...and then I got it. It took me about 3 days to fully get over it. It was awful, and Chad decided to change his flight (which was not cheap to do) to stay a few extra days to take care of me and be able to spend a little more time with me.
I must say, seeing each other completely helpless, whiney, beyond sick, and essentially at our worst, really brought us closer together. We had a very interesting time this week and learned more about each other (not just due to sickness) and gained new understanding towards one another. A few nights ago we jokingly decided to play "Truth or Dare" as we lay in bed, which we decided to just turn into a game of "Truth". It was nice to come out and ask things that we probably wouldn't have otherwise.
Every day I look more and more forward to seeing our relationship grow, and how we grow together. It's comforting to feel like you truly have met your other half. It's heartbreaking when one of us goes away. But that is something that may be changing sooner rather than later... ;)
I dropped him off at the airport a few hours ago, and now he's back home, and I'm in mine. He comes back in 11 days and is going to spend Easter with me and my family. No time for moping!
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