I feel like so much has changed since I wrote in here last. I feel that I've slowly been slipping backwards with my depression since the surgery back in February. It triggered something in my brain which caused me to develop severe anxiety and revisit my depression.
For years I have dealt with my depression solely with therapy. I've managed very well. Since this started, I began to pull away from a lot, if not most of the people in my life - minus my family and Chad. I'm tired all the time, have little motivation, and for a good chunk of time right after surgery I had random uncontrollable crying fits. I've been on an antidepressant for the last month and am slowly trying to get back on track. I know it's going to take time to get back to where I need to be, but I feel very grateful to have so much support, have a job that I enjoy (where everyone has been so great to me), and to be where I am. It may not be where I want to be right now, but things could be much worse.
Chad and I are in the midst of researching apartments in the area, our lease is up in a matter of a few months! Very excited for this new venture of my life. We'll finally be on our own. It will be a whole new chapter for both of us! Since we will be moving shortly, we're trying our damnedest to save as much as we can, and to buy as much of the necessities so we don't end up falling short with money once we're out.
I'm trying to get as much knitting done as I can so I can make some extra money at Monster Mania in September. I'm kind of doubtful about it, I've been lacking motivation to even get that done. In due time, I guess.
I've started juicing, and am in the process of beginning a juice fast. Trying hard to get healthy, and in better shape. I know that will make a huge difference with my energy and mental health.
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